Yesterday after dinner went to Greyton's grandma funeral ..
When i reach there , they were all mourning ...
After that , you can still see their happy faces .
But i guess deep in their heart , theres only a word to describe their feeling and its PAIN .
I can see that aunty Joan is very sad , but for greyton -.-
He can still joke around with his passing of his car license 2 days ago -.-
Guess today and tmr will be a hard day for them ba ..
Crying all along ??

I was sitting down there , thinking about how lucky Greyton can be as he was able to see his grandma the last time before she went ...
i wasn't able to see my grand father the last time which is the most regret thing in my life .
I was in school then and my mother told me this news when i was having recess .
Guess wads my reaction ??

Went home around 10.30pm as my bro hav school tmr .
I tried to sleep ... But words that my mum call and told me kept flashing in my mind .
She said ' Boy , i let you to be alone . But you better walk in the correct path alone and come back later and not walking the path alone that will not return anymore . '
I drop my tears immediately ..
Wad wld be your reaction when your mum say this to you ?
The kind of words that everyone seldom can hear i just heard it .
The mother love that everyone seldom can get i get it .
Mum i love you ..

Tried to sleep again around 12pm .
But the worst thing came .
Every consecuetive 1 hour i've been woke up by nightmares !
I cant sleep anymore and its 3 plus in the morning ..
The fear that i always fear have appear in my dreams .
Would the ending of us be lik that ?
Would i end up liddat ?
I dunno ... But i fear ... Really scared ...
People says nightmares always the opposite in real life .
Would it be a happy ending or sad ending ?
Its a question mark now ..

I've regret too many things .
People tend to regret after losing it ..